Feelings Show.

Alot of people these days are trying to act as if everything is a surprise and they get real hyped, get real ugly about & over situations.

how i may react to some thing you may ask? well i'm a victim of apathy and only show emotion at the appropiate time.

i only use exaggeration in a creative way as trying to prove a point or so,

exaggeration goes hand in hand w. sarcasm so that'll be my time.

girls be getting the hand clappin' for no reason lol.

guys just be "oh word, oh word, that's how you feel, it's like that ?!?".

you'll say yes and they still wont understand it.

do i have a to drive a wooden spike into the center of your head for you perceive what im trying to say.

People may only stand out and have slander thrown around them. it's only if you throw yourself out there. Then they get to a point and realize, i dont wanna be position.

it'll be hard to try to get out.

just stay true & stay to yourself and you'd have no feelings of regret

My weekend out of NYC

so everyone was asking if i was going to that college fair on sunday...i said no because i'd be in philly visiting temple university.

This trip was orginated by this girl in my church who goes to temple, so she had me & 4 other people come upstate to see her, show us around the college, show us her dorm and the basic college life.

prior to visiting temple, we went to rutgers college in NJ which was completely boring to me even though everyone gets there panties wet when they see a fine arts or arts related building and go omg danielle, omg look arts; as if it doesn't exist.

the woman who was giving a powerpoint presentation about rutgers was like a robot, she remember too much information to be human and she didnt laugh, she giggled over her words but i think if she was to take time out and laugh, that would mess up her "hardware drive" and she'd have to start all over because she would be losing time.

Temple was interesting, why? because there was trash on the floor and students who looked full of life and had problems. That's the essence of college. That campus is huge and where it was located looked like 5th avenue. I was like all they need is a uniqlo =]

There art gallery was something i'd never seen before, or at least the elements it contained. I wanna take philosophy & political science, art will always be my passion but what career can i find in that.

anyways after touring temple, we headed out to chilli's which i've never been too b4
**it's funny that i go 2 most restauraunt outside NY or outside America.

the food was good, i had a cajun chicken pasta and a not so good pina colada.

headed back to the hotel where we were gonna watch 2 movies: step bro's & saw 5
step bro's was cut off in the middle because the adults we were with didnt approve of the woman rapping that guy in the bathrm lmfao.

i was bit pissed because that was the 2nd time i saw the move and didnt get 2 watch the whole thing -_-

fcukers.

subsequent morning i ate blueberry muffins and a boiled egg for breakfast. yumm

Almost a month and some later...

it's been such a long time. busy and what not so they say say if your ALWAYS on the computer alot you have no life, i dont really believe in that but hey, i'm not online as much

i'm actually doing really good in math, improving. juss got my report card

photography: A-
u.s gov't: B+
computer design: B
eng tech prep 6: B+
math: C+

**mind you i came from horrible grades in math so im aiming for a B, im almost there and then maybe my mom will love me for, and i'd love myself more =)

yesterday my boyfriend picked meup frm school and we walked to 34th street and i juss wanted to sit on those steps, those long set of steps.




long legs =]

i took pictures of random shyt, he tooks pictures of me picking leaves off a bushes (i'm always doing that for some odd reason).

i ate a BLT frm 23rd st. bagels & go banana's flavrd snapple, it was pretty good, sorta tasted like a pina colada, well at least i think so.

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i got a couple of problems but who dont ?
you know, i'm taking everything nowadays one step at a time. wisdom & knowledge & understanding is key.


i hate when people bullshyt me, and others so i'm quick when it comes to responses.

i'm learning to dissolve myself that's all for the love.

sometimes i snap so quickly or at the moment i'll be thinking that i'm doing the right thing when i'm not

so now its true, sometimes we use emotion over rationality

New Semester

finally i get the frigg out my orignal classes and into a whole set of new ones

this time around i get photography for 2 periods straight. the sad thing is that i think about hunger the whole time because i eat nada in the morning...well i might nibble on some junkkfood ' [HAH !] or something but that bout it.

my new government teacher is a computer jock and an anti-green civilian.

i ask "mr. egan , why do you give so many handouts !? you're killing trees"

egan: killing trees ? what have trees done for me

me: tree's are the very reason you're having this co nversation with me

egan: pshh, the love of trees is exaggerated, i dont care for them

see i'm not that much of a tree hugger either but i've never seen anyone so defiant and being oblivious to the world's problems.

I have period 2-8 so everything is a breeze.
sometimes i get time to eat in the morning, other times i dont. i practically starve myself nowadays. I'll eat once and wont eat again until i'm terribly hungry.

I mean now it just seems like school is getting more complicated, taking S.A.T's in june and i was like omg. i've been escaping reality so now i'm hit....

i'll get out of highschool in one piece...

2009

Another new year, i swear i wasn't enthusiastic about a new year coming at all untill 11:58 p.m then i was like damn its gonna be a new year.

I spent my last mins of 2008 in church like i do every year.
I'm getting over it. I mean it could of been church or times sq, and my philosophy on a dropping of ball for a new year is over-rated so i took a basketball, dropped it in the middle of the afternoon and called it my times square ball dropping. Besides i was with all my friends anyways
after the pastor announced it was 09, i ran around hugging random people, Darryl flew on me i think i got lipgloss on his button-up.lol


Now i realize it, i should be more optimistic about my new year. I mean grateful is something that should come on point because i could of been dead so thank God that im here being able to type this, yeah thank God.

People ask "Danielle are your ready for 2009 ?"
I reply "well i can't put it on hold and try to fix up all my mistakes and bad endings so i guess so".

I wanna pass those ELA Regnets, pass Math B in general so i wont find myself in summer school.

What i did today aye ?
well after church this lady from my church took my mother, brother, and I went to this New Years party. had a bunch of finger food and i sware i got full alone off of a shrimp, honey wings, and apple cider.
Im eating shrimp now.lol

I tried hogging the apple cider, tried hiding under the computer so no one could find me or the half full bottle but they did anyways. lol.

After that the adults were watching the bourne ultimatum while me and all these other chumps talked about Camp Hope (v.b.s they take us to every summer)

Had a good time, this kid there was of course running his mouth about some pish posh.
Idk he's demented, basic epitomy.

Got home about 3 a.m and i didnt hesitate to stay up a lil and txt mssg some biddies.
my eyes have been buring from my 2 year deliquence in a teen activity. which would be txtin' ;

Anyways i went to Francheska's house, stayed for awhile.
I took some awesome pictures with her new camera.
Unexpectedly i was doing my eyebrows an cut off half of my right. holy shytt...

then Francheska sister's friend came and said "whats your name ?" i said "...Danielle".
then she runs to the kitchen "guys Danielle cut her eyebrow off !"
mother and mother's friend come into the room like "omg lemme see".

yes it noticable cuz my eyebrows are really thin so the end is missing.
eye pencil couldn't work because i dont know how to use that crap. awesome.

so now im home w. one and half of an eyebrow just finished gettin my ass kicked in Soul Calibur legends by my 8 1/2 year old brother

life is good, life is good.

If i was modern day michelangelo, i'd go to C.U

the thrill of walking to cooper union every morning enlightens my saturdays. i come in and everyone looks at you as if they sort of missed you...but they haven't.

there music playing, a strange type of music and the only things that lights up the room is the slight sunshine and the smile of one instructor who i feel a bit close with.

she's left handed, so am i.

i start right away with what i've been hit with. for lunch i go get some dolla pizza from 2 bro's pizzeria. i always eat lk 2 slice or more cuz it not fulfilling.

if i'm not mistaken, the streets on st. marks place are cobblestone and i love cobblestone streets, i get an elation when i walk on them.

everyone there is pretty mature, there's only one dickhead who gets erections in the plaster rooms but its o.k now ;p

When i grow up [fcuk the pussycat dolls]

See i really don't wanna get any older

even though I've been eager to turn 17. just 17 and after that i wanna stop aging.
17 because maybe then my mom will let loose a little on my grip of freedom.

I'm actually fine with being young, people see the adolescents as a group of empty-headed junkie's and some see us as the future, a twisted one.

but i don't know what i wanna be.

I'm thinking about taking art seriously, but if that fails, i wanna do something interesting
something that i can look forward to waking up in the morning
maybe i should i work with a animation company.

or turn into a political graffiti extremist like Bansky <3 [picture up-left] and run the streets at night trying to get a message across and in the daytime, people crowd around the my work looking shocked, happy, confused or ecstatic.

and at that very moment, I'll feel accomplished.
but to hell w. singing or dancing or working in a super-market or nursing or acting

well actually some global teacher in my school is all like "you should do acting, your humorous, you know what ? your a really funny girl like weird cool, now what do your pins say again...oh that's funny haha"

his name is Mr.Bazer and he has this chalkboard character named hoppy.i wanna do something where all the fun is at. something where i know my heart will be at.

Miscellaneous

Sometimes i feel that being amongst this human population is the sickest thing in the world. But then it's also beautiful at the same time. So it's a very rational topic.
Tomorrow is Columbus day, and I remember being in global talking about if he was a hero or a bastard for "discovering" the America's.
well the teacher didn't really call him a bastard, i did in my head.loll
but anyways i was reading something in a textbook about historians going back and forth on the fact:
was it worth that he brought his Spaniards over to the America's ?, forced them to be "Christians", bring over all this set of disease, induct the natives into "labor" which would l8r start the act of slavery, kill natives & take advantage of them
but it was it was worth it because Americans wouldn't be here neither would all these forms of gov and the asinine world as we know it today...

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME

and i been back and forth tryna keep these higher education grades up.
i'm gonna say that higher ed. instead of high school now.
but anyways today i had art classes @ cooper union. pretty mellow day =]

i'll have more longer,detailed blogs coming up soon
i have go fold some clothes now and shett...
oh yea and try to something with the porcupine on my head -_-

Going to be a junior this year -_-

i'm sort of excited, but then no.
i'm on the brink of college business.
the P.S.A.T will swallow me in october and i'm mad i'm sitting here and thinking about this ALREADY.

Junior means 3 periods of art :D which is fair for me because that means one of my classes is cut.
i think we might get out a slight bit earlier.
But now it's really hitting me, i'm gonna be a damn junior.
But i'm gonna enjoy it. I dont cut class.

I can't wait to see the new herd of freshman, and some wallflowers.
I just wanna do well this year, pass any regent that hits me in my face, and conquer math.

and U.S HISTORY SHALL BE AWESOME. =]

This "Summer"

Generally, summer was over for me in the 3rd week of July
and i didn't go all beach crazy either.

• i was UN-employed =/
• i didn't get to chill with the people i really wanted to.
• and the $$$ was burned.

today's the 11Th. 2 weeks will be my birthday, I'm not entirely excited. my dad's gonna want to make me feel mellow. yea as if that ever happens, telling me he brought a camera for me. yea right, it better not be cheesy

like last year before school started, he got me a rolling backpack, mind you I'm going into 10Th grade.i insisted that he keep it, give it to a little girl on the street, i refuse to pull that thing to school, let alone an airport.

then my mom bought me a North face. more ideal for me

and i just went completely off subject.

well back to this summer, it was alright. i was mostly outside just chillin, not with my type of people.

everyday was a drama theater.

and then there's the instigator, fat [literally] instigator.

i no longer associate with him because he tried to pull off some vain stunt on me and that day i lost all veneration for him.

i take my brother to camp every morning, walking some long 6 blocks with my ipod, and telling the twirp he better be good. i wake up to my mornings in a tired state, not wanting to do anything.

and last night, i picked up my math A Barron's book. everything slipped out my mind

these 2 months are deadly.