My sucky photography morning

The photo gods are never with me, as if they exist.

I finished my roll of film for my photography class. So im like o.k i need to press the 250.00 button

i started rewinding it and hear nothing so my first action is too panic because that all i known,
i wasn't gonna be a dumbass like i was in the 1st time and sit w. the back open while light destroys my roll of film

in photography, light is our enemy.
black is everything.

anyways i try to calm down and text my good friend william on what to do.
turns outfor 20 mins i was rewinding absolutely nothing while 2x out of those 20scds of anxiety & anger i slipped the cam in2 my black bookbag and peeked to see if the film was still on the reel.

IT WAS !
i screamed and closed it back panting like a dog and put my head down
**i was on the train at 7:30 in morning when all of this panicing was going on**

i take a breather and he txts me back. turns out i wasn't suppose 2 pull the rewind lever all the way up so im lk wtf i can't do anything right.

so i push it down and i finally rewind the film in the proper way. hopefuly there aren't any light leaks when i develop my film.

fear gripped me.
fear is still gripping me.
fear will continue to grip me until i take the film out the reel and look at my negatives.

ahh everything is a learing experience.

Feelings Show.

Alot of people these days are trying to act as if everything is a surprise and they get real hyped, get real ugly about & over situations.

how i may react to some thing you may ask? well i'm a victim of apathy and only show emotion at the appropiate time.

i only use exaggeration in a creative way as trying to prove a point or so,

exaggeration goes hand in hand w. sarcasm so that'll be my time.

girls be getting the hand clappin' for no reason lol.

guys just be "oh word, oh word, that's how you feel, it's like that ?!?".

you'll say yes and they still wont understand it.

do i have a to drive a wooden spike into the center of your head for you perceive what im trying to say.

People may only stand out and have slander thrown around them. it's only if you throw yourself out there. Then they get to a point and realize, i dont wanna be position.

it'll be hard to try to get out.

just stay true & stay to yourself and you'd have no feelings of regret

My weekend out of NYC

so everyone was asking if i was going to that college fair on sunday...i said no because i'd be in philly visiting temple university.

This trip was orginated by this girl in my church who goes to temple, so she had me & 4 other people come upstate to see her, show us around the college, show us her dorm and the basic college life.

prior to visiting temple, we went to rutgers college in NJ which was completely boring to me even though everyone gets there panties wet when they see a fine arts or arts related building and go omg danielle, omg look arts; as if it doesn't exist.

the woman who was giving a powerpoint presentation about rutgers was like a robot, she remember too much information to be human and she didnt laugh, she giggled over her words but i think if she was to take time out and laugh, that would mess up her "hardware drive" and she'd have to start all over because she would be losing time.

Temple was interesting, why? because there was trash on the floor and students who looked full of life and had problems. That's the essence of college. That campus is huge and where it was located looked like 5th avenue. I was like all they need is a uniqlo =]

There art gallery was something i'd never seen before, or at least the elements it contained. I wanna take philosophy & political science, art will always be my passion but what career can i find in that.

anyways after touring temple, we headed out to chilli's which i've never been too b4
**it's funny that i go 2 most restauraunt outside NY or outside America.

the food was good, i had a cajun chicken pasta and a not so good pina colada.

headed back to the hotel where we were gonna watch 2 movies: step bro's & saw 5
step bro's was cut off in the middle because the adults we were with didnt approve of the woman rapping that guy in the bathrm lmfao.

i was bit pissed because that was the 2nd time i saw the move and didnt get 2 watch the whole thing -_-

fcukers.

subsequent morning i ate blueberry muffins and a boiled egg for breakfast. yumm

Almost a month and some later...

it's been such a long time. busy and what not so they say say if your ALWAYS on the computer alot you have no life, i dont really believe in that but hey, i'm not online as much

i'm actually doing really good in math, improving. juss got my report card

photography: A-
u.s gov't: B+
computer design: B
eng tech prep 6: B+
math: C+

**mind you i came from horrible grades in math so im aiming for a B, im almost there and then maybe my mom will love me for, and i'd love myself more =)

yesterday my boyfriend picked meup frm school and we walked to 34th street and i juss wanted to sit on those steps, those long set of steps.




long legs =]

i took pictures of random shyt, he tooks pictures of me picking leaves off a bushes (i'm always doing that for some odd reason).

i ate a BLT frm 23rd st. bagels & go banana's flavrd snapple, it was pretty good, sorta tasted like a pina colada, well at least i think so.