My sucky photography morning

The photo gods are never with me, as if they exist.

I finished my roll of film for my photography class. So im like o.k i need to press the 250.00 button

i started rewinding it and hear nothing so my first action is too panic because that all i known,
i wasn't gonna be a dumbass like i was in the 1st time and sit w. the back open while light destroys my roll of film

in photography, light is our enemy.
black is everything.

anyways i try to calm down and text my good friend william on what to do.
turns outfor 20 mins i was rewinding absolutely nothing while 2x out of those 20scds of anxiety & anger i slipped the cam in2 my black bookbag and peeked to see if the film was still on the reel.

IT WAS !
i screamed and closed it back panting like a dog and put my head down
**i was on the train at 7:30 in morning when all of this panicing was going on**

i take a breather and he txts me back. turns out i wasn't suppose 2 pull the rewind lever all the way up so im lk wtf i can't do anything right.

so i push it down and i finally rewind the film in the proper way. hopefuly there aren't any light leaks when i develop my film.

fear gripped me.
fear is still gripping me.
fear will continue to grip me until i take the film out the reel and look at my negatives.

ahh everything is a learing experience.